When I joined my chapter, Eden BBG, I instantly knew that I had become a part of a sisterhood. The older girls became role models whom I strived to be just like. My cousin Grace Dikman was the regional Shlicha when I joined in 8th grade, and it became my dream to be a leader in the chapter and region as well.

A month ago, I faced a difficult decision regarding BBYO. I have always desired to be on R board, and I decided to run this year. In a previous story I published on the Shofar, I wrote about how much I loved being chapter Mit Mom. That being said, I wanted to take the position to another level and run for regional Mit Mom. I made my platform and wrote a speech. However, two weeks before the elections, I began to second-guess my decision to run. My junior year is already mapped out to be extremely busy - I am involved in many clubs and participate in theater and softball at my school. Academically, junior year is extremely important, and adding another commitment, especially something as significant as regional board, could be overwhelming. I would be unable to commit to R board fully. Therefore, I knew I had to make a decision, and quickly, before elections. With the help of my parents and friends, I realized that being on R board alongside everything else I have next year is simply not physically or mentally possible. So, I ultimately decided to withdraw from running.

Making this decision felt like I was letting go of a dream I could have taken to the stars. But then I realized that my dream is to be a leader in BBYO, whether on R board or not. I strive to be a role model for younger members; someone who can inspire others to love BBYO just as much as I do. I know that I don't need to be on R board to be a leader, I just need to be me.

To fulfill my leadership mission, I am going to CLTC this summer. I intend to take the skills and lessons I learn there and apply them back home, where I will serve as chapter Nsiah next term.

I hope this story helps others realize they can be a leader in BBYO without overextending themselves. It happens often that members commit to more than they can handle, and the stress that follows can diminish their love for an organization that holds such beauty and power. Although I am not on regional board, I will still strive to inspire others to reach for the stars, no matter how scary it may be. "Cumulatively small decisions, choices, actions, make a very big difference." - Jane Goodall